"The" Moment

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For the rest of the people who knew me, I'm an easy going person who seldom goes ballistic and really showing it publicly. Yes, that's me. Some of my buds would say how on earth did I got to control the temperamental side of me, since it was obvious when (on some very,very rare moments) I went all hell got loose with my kids at school. It'll take great self control and sacrifice, yeah, when your ego is at stake, as any men would do they would rather charge forward than backing up. I was able to maintain my coolness so to speak, and maintain it I did.

But then, at the last staff meeting, I decided to let go....

To say I'm proud of it, no, there is no way that I am proud of it. But there's that thin line where mutual respect and logic is well separated with sheer emotions. Sometimes, mostly at wobbly situation, I would rather shut my mouth and keep my silence till the entire ordeal is done and over with.

But then, at the last staff meeting, I decided to let go....

I don't have to close my eyes and carefully select my words to convey how and what I feel then; with one deep breath, I just let it go, and instead of giving my thoughts any chances to reevaluate the consequences, I just let my heart do all the talking..

I don't want to repeat it here what I've said during that meeting, I know some of my friends would sniff out this blog of mine later on, so I'll keep that to myself.

" Daras juga cakap ko Mervyn...Tapi sa salute ko juga la..ngam juga ko cakap macam tu..." a friend of mine later smsed me...

I don't know how will I endure the entire week next week..but I'll survive

1 comments:

Aj said...

sometimes we need to say it directly ... and if we keep bow to them, they may put us down under... congrats